AM I DEAD???

AM I DEAD???

I am so tired of being alone
Trapped by all my childish fears
I don't know Wat I am doing
This pain is just too much to bear
I can't hold it in no longer
As I walk over to the kitchen
Pick up the knife
Say to my self
Shit mine stuck in a place
Where I anit gone get my freedom
So I take the knife
& slide it slowly across my neck
to put an end to all the surfing and horror
for once and for all
is I feel the blood flow down my neck
I fall to the ground
And stare straight up as the nightly sky
Wish that where ever I got from here is
A better place then here
My eyes shut slowly me everything turns to
Silent Now I could hear my own heart???
AM I DEAD????????