Hating

This feeling is horrible
I can't accept it
because there's no way
that it's all over just like that.

I hate my life!
Every thing's falling apart
Everything I once knew
Is no longer as true.

That relationship ended
After a year of pure love
If they can't make it
than I'm no better fit.

I'm hurting others
because of my wants and needs
Why do I care so much about me
That her hurt I refuse to see

I am still so young
but I have no support
I'm always home all alone
Everyone else is always gone

My friends all have lives
None of them are ever up to talk
I can't run to them with my stress
I have to try and act best.

I am being selfish
even here and now
I can't even write
without getting myself into a fight.

I need to stop doubting
because the light will come out
Maybe I will learn then
that my heart can mend.