Darkest oblivion (fixt)

by BaybeBlew   Jul 22, 2004


You beat my confidence down
With your never ending disdain
You kicked around my trust
And left my soul in pain

You bought me foolish things
Like flowers and stuffed bears
Begged for my forgiveness
After you pushed me down the stairs

I covered up my bruises
And held my head up high
While I tried to find a way
To gently say goodbye

We got into a fight
And I told you we were through
I started packing up
Cause I was done with you

You slapped me across my face
And pushed me into a wall
You blackened both my eyes
But no one heard me call

My family tries to reach me
And my friends call every day
But I cannot see or talk to them
For a dear price I would pay

The abuse has gone to far
I've watch my happiness fade
I have nothing left to live for
As I pick up the razor blade

I'll end my life myself
He will not do me in
Of death, I'm not afraid
As this blade glides in my skin

...Mmm...This isn't first hand...just my thoughts, I actually don't know alot about abuse, its just an intersting topic.

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  • 19 years ago

    by Jacklyn

    hey what does fixt mean? it's not a word, not in the dictionary, my computer doesn't know it? you know what i guess your lucky enough i even read it!! PLP!

    ~lil slam~

  • 20 years ago

    by Bettye

    That pretty much hit home for me. I've been through that too, and you're not alone. I've written a few poems about being in abused relationships too. Keep writing, you have great talent!

  • 20 years ago

    by Ş∂ņďħy∂

    Hmmm.. thats pretty contrasting from the above poem of your own! I found a postive minded person advicing people not to cut in that poem, but in the this poem i am finding you cutting by yourself! I understand worst things are happening with you... I'll pray for you to have better days. Truly i will pray for you. YOu are a good hearted person. i could make it out from the above poem. You deserve to be happy. You will have happy days soon. YOu are an amazing poet. So much talent god has given you. Keep writing. See your next poem.

  • 20 years ago

    by hayley williams

    Hey, i gave you a 5 for sure because i think your poem is amazing and so well written! xx

  • 20 years ago

    by gasping for air

    thats a really great poem... sad but great... good job.... i hope you keep going and plan on publishing your poetry some day.... they're good and i hope you can get as many ppl as possible to read them... and by the way, i write about cutting and suicide too and i havent done it... im too chicken, i dont handle blood or pain well at all.... thats why i used to punch walls and just scratch my arms with small sorta sharp objects.... its sad i know but its true... im not a very selfsecure and stable person..
    loves and hugs

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