EATING DISORDER

MY PROBLEM (eating disorder)
I'm going to try and explain,
why its hard for me to eat everyday,
how i can't even eat a single meal
without feeling regret come my way.

Four months ago i was completely fine,
Food was never a problem to me,
until someone told me to lose some weight,
was i fat, how could this be?

I tried to forget the comment said,
but so slowly did it consume my mind,
It quickly put me into this state,
where today I'm not that person that was fine.

I slowly became obsessed with losing weight,
And i would starve myself everyday,
until the hunger and the pain could not be felt
and until my weight decreased and changed.

I tried to ignore my tired mind,
tried to act like nothing was wrong,
but everyday was a struggle,
Now the strength i owned had gone.

So today i still carry this problem,
where food now is the very thing i hate,
where i can't even take one bite,
without thinking about my weight.

This is not something so easy to cast away
i can't just take a bite without feeling regret
its not so easy to go back to my normal way,
but the comment said i wish could forget.

PLEASE COMMENT AND RATE..I WOULD LOVE YOUR COMMENTS.. THANKYOUN FOR READING MY POEM..

LUV Jules