Saved By His Voice

Why do I feel this way?
Can you hear what I say?

Diabetes and other shit,
Sometimes I just want to throw a big fit.

I am sick of this life,
Should I reach for that knife?

There it is, so easy to touch,
Is there anything in this life I would miss that much?

My arm is reaching out,
I am reaching for the knife without a doubt.

I have it in my hand and across my chest,
Should I do it, is this what\'s best?

I feel the cold mental against my heart,
I know if I do this it will tare my family apart.

My heart is beating fast,
I wonder how long the pain would last.

The pressure is getting thick,
Tell me this is a joke or some sort of trick.

My heart is saying, "Kacy put down the knife\",
While my head is saying \"Don\'t do that, you have such a sucky life\".

I scream out loud,
And fall to the floor,
I throw the knife,
And watch it hit the door.

I cry in tears of anger and pain,
Knowing I have nothing left to gain.

I am alone and still in tears,
But I know I have to face my fears.

I am a good girl with a good heart,
So, why am I tearing my life apart?

\"God would you please help me,
And make me understand all the things I see.\"

I sit and what to hear Him speak,
Suddenly my body feels weak.

He says, \"Kacy, be strong,
For you will live long\".

\"I have a very special plan for you,
And you will soon see that it will all work out,
For Kacy,
That\'s what life is all about\".