The Pain I Hide

As I wake up each and every morning, I wipe my tears away
I put on my fake smile, and hope for a good day.
I start to pray so my tears will not roll down,
and my thoughts wont make me frown.
the thoughts I have to fight to keep my place in this world
but little do they know, I am no longer that happy girl.
Outside this door, everyone has a say
Look at that young girl, she lives her life the correct way
well there is so many things they do not know
so many things I hide because I wont dare to let them show.
I listen to my mom as she tells my family with so much pride...
shes a tough girl, she never lets anyone hurt her or treat her wrong
as inside I feel as if I am chocking because I can no longer be strong.
Only god knows what I go through when I am all alone,
he knows that my heart is not made of stone.
I feel the pain, and I feel the sorrow
to the point that it makes me wish for no tomorrow.
No one here knows how much I hurt by looking into my eyes...
they cant hear my silent screams, or those late night cries.
No one will ever see me tearing over someone like him,
a person who is capable of killing someone within.
How can someone hurt someone this bad?
to the point where it makes other people sad?
this answer I may never know
but this pain still continues to grow.
and I cant do anything else but to wait...
for my heart to mend hoping it wont be too late.