Sorry mum

Mum i have to talk to you
please mum please don't shout
but you know that lad that i was dating
we are no longer going out
but you see thats not the problem
the problem is, well me
i lied to you mum
i just hope you can see
he wasn't my age mum
he wasn't fourteen
he was twenty one mum
but he was really keen
he loved me mum, he said so
and i really loved him back
and i didn't even mind the fact
that he smoked and did crack
but thats not the problem mum
and i can tell that you are mad
he made me cry mum
he made me really sad
i knew i couldn't talk to you
because you'd only shout
you'd tell me i couldn't see him again
and i couldn't live without
see mum one time i was with him
and he hit me really hard
but i forgave him mum
he sent me a cute sorry card
so i went back mum
i went back for more
but one time he wouldn't let me go
he dragged me in and locked the door
i asked him very nicely mum
i begged and cried to go
i told him if you loved me
he just slammed me down and said no
thats why i am sorry mum
I'm sorry i didn't think
but i loved him so much mum
i didn't care that he made me drink
but the thing is mum
the problems yet to come
he wouldn't let me out
can't believe i was that dumb
he held me mum
made me do things without choice
life's not fair mum
no one could hear my voice
i started crying mum
as this guy just kept on saying
i love you darling you know i do
you know I'm only playing
i struggled free mum
and that night whilst i was home
he rang me mum
you answered the phone
Tracey's brother it was
remember it now
i didn't want to lie to you
i felt like such a cow
he said sorry mum
i thought he meant it to
i forgave him mum
i didn't know what to do
that's when he did it mum
that night when i went round
he hurt me mum
he tied me to the ground
that's why I'm writing this
because he said he wont let me go
so I'm ending my own life
just wanted you to know
i love you mum
i didn't want to have to leave
I'm so sorry mum
but i can no longer breathe
I'm crying now
as blood trickles from my arm
he's coming now
please mum just stay calm
i was pregnant mum
i stopped eating so it would die
thats why I'm skinny mum
remember you asked me why
just remember i love you mum
and when they find me please don't cry
and just remember
it was my choice to die