Helping me inside

I hated my school life
all the bulling
all the fights

then one day it came over me
like a black sheet

suddenly i hated every one
i wanted to be left alone
i would yell back at at teachers

the knife felt so nice against the flesh on my arm
the rope so rough against my neck

i dreamed of vampires
slashing my neck
taking away my blood

one night i found myself with a razor blade
i was sleepwalking
i woke up and dropped the blade
and fell to the flaw

the paracetamol was in the top draw
know one would know
my sister walked by the bathroom door
she screamed when she saw me sat there on the flaw

she screamed for mum and dad
it was lucky she had
this was starting to get bad

mum tuck the pills
dad picked me up
thats when lightning struck in my head
i was at the end of my thread

i screamed at my sis
i lashed at her but luckily missed
but i smashed the mirror on the wall

I'm OK now from what i can see
i was a prisoner inside of me
iv had to learn that people are there to help

but thats not always passable when your only 15
you keep all your emotions inside
i kept mine in to long

so if ever you feel like this
don't keep to your self
because i was lucky and got rid of my inner-self
from hurting me
from other people

family teachers doctors are there to help

and to think this all started with 1 bully it could have bin solved with 1 simple word with a teacher or any one but i found out the hard way