Why did you abuse me????

I thought he was the one
he hit me
i thought it was normal
i told him everything...
even that a grandpa raped me...
he too felt compelled to rape me...
this was only the beging of things to come.
mike he wasn't the one.
mike abused me
mike controlled me...
he thought it was funny...
it made me feel bad
he still hits me but the thing is
we're not together anymore.
I'm with some one new but fear...
he too will abuse me...
and maybe even rape me.
i lost the relationship but that wasn't all that i lost.....
i lost my pride and
everything that i thought i was
because he owned me.
why?
why did you abuse me?
i feel i should to make you happy.
why did you abuse me?
why do you continue to abuse me.
i want to be safe again but the truth is i will never be safe again...
not for a very long time...
not till i can protect myself...
from you and .....
people like you.