Suicidal Bloodshed

Death: April 23rd 2000

Suicidal Bloodshed

I’m waiting for you again,

In the pouring rain of tears,

I stand by the parks ledge,

Hearing only the creaking of the swing.

I’m starting to worry for you again,

For it’s already been too long,

Maybe a half an hour,

Where is it you have gone?

I’m standing here for you again,

Aren’t you going to come?

Wont you meet me for just one day?

Please tell me something’s not wrong.

I’m running for you again,

Striding quickly to your home,

I pound on the door helplessly,

To see if your even there.

I’m fighting for you again,

I try to break into the house,

I manage to find the spare key,

And unlock the deathly grasp.

I’m searching for you again,

And I see nothing wrong,

Until I reach my final destination,

And notice you’re completely gone.

I’m yelling for you again,

And you don’t even care to respond,

Sometimes I think your ignoring me,

Can you hear me?

I’m reaching out for you again,

Finally I see your legs,

But why is it your sprawled on the floor?

Covered in a crimson pond of blood…

I’m crying for you again,

Why are your wrists cut up?

Why did you reopen those scars?

Can’t you be strong?

I’m screaming for you again,

And I run drop to the floor and wail,

Pushing for you to awaken,

I’m drenched in this blood…stale.

I’m watching for you again,

I see them wrapping your body,

People trying to console me,

Nothing will be the same.

I’m wondering for you again,

Why did you even try?

Why is your suicide strong?

Did something bad happen?

I’m seeing for you again,

I look as they lower your casket,

I kick free from the grasps I’m held in,

And holler out in pain trying to reach you…

I’m waiting for you again,

Standing in this pouring rain,

By your abandoned grave you have,

And the deathly flowers that lay…

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