Why Father?

Everyday as I looked out side,

I wonder why you were never here,

Thinking if I’ll ever have a father,

Yet I’ll never have one that’s real,

How could you leave us alone?

Mother, my brother, and I,

Yet you don’t even know about me,

Nor why I use to cry,

I shed so many tears for you,

I’ve been through so much more,

Now I ask you to your face,

Why did you leave us all alone?

You say you don’t care for power,

Yet you have to be the best,

Why would you say those words?

Sometimes I think you’re a pest,

Hey dad, don’t you remember me?

I am the daughter you never cared for,

The daughter who you once deceived,

Now why doesn’t your innocent glare look at me?

Is there something wrong?

Is it because you lied to me?

Or is it because you’re wrong?

Why father? Why did you go?

Were you not man enough to face the challenges?

Of fatherhood once more,

Who was supposed to take care of my brother?

Who was supposed to console mother?

Most of all, the question that yearns,

Who was supposed to be my hero?

I suffered through so much,

Enslaved with your dreams,

I lived out your expectations,

And now you go off and leave?

I wonder how a real father would be,

And the question still remains in my mind,

Yet how can you be my father?

When you’re not even a man,

How can I miss you and give you honor?

When you’re a man I never knew,

I gave so many chances,

And opened up my heart,

You took those opportunities for granted,

Now why don’t you even look?

Is there something wrong dad?

Why did you say you loved me all the time?

When it already seems like your dead,

For in the future, when I have children in my hold,

I never will learn from you,

I’ll be there for them, in the end,

Raising them without your techniques,

For you had none of your own,

I stood before you, in front of your eyes,

Yet you didn’t look at all into mine,

How many times have I cried and begged,

But your childlike gaze never spotted me,

I guess your instinct wasn’t to be kind,

But to fail all those who you “love,”

Stop toying with my thoughts of hate,

All is put to a halt,

Don’t try and show sympathy,

For it will do you no good,

The grief still remains in my heart,

The one that turned bitter cold,

You just had to challenge our emotions,

Leaving us all behind,

How can we start all over?

When we haven’t even begun…