My Bleeding Words.

Mommy why are you yelling?
Please I'm sorry I'm not perfect
Will you please forgive your child
Didn't mean to be so wrecked.
Daddy why are you hitting me?
I didn't mean to say a word
Please stop cursing daddy
It hurts, you're acting absurd.
Oh dear older sister, hug me tight
Tell me every thing's gonna be okay
We have to be strong and hold on
Fold our hands together and pray.
Heavily footsteps are coming closer
We're locked behind a wooden door
Me and my sister hold each other
Not sure of what to do anymore.
He breaks down the wooden door
As tears flow from my swollen eyes
He yells and curses at me to stop
To stop crying or sister will die.
He holds a knife to sisters throat
I try but cannot help the tears
He slices her pale skinned neck
I couldn't help but hide my fears.
Mommies yelling from down stairs
Screaming for daddy to stop
She yells and yells, it isn't fair
Now daddies ready to pop.
He takes out a largely shaped gun
And points it to his head
I sit there crying helplessly
Wishing I was already dead.
He shoots the silver bullet inside
His lifeless body falls to the floor
Now daddies gone for a long time
I now will never see him anymore.
My mommy runs up the stairs
With tears streaming down her face
I tell her I'm glad to see her now
Sisters gone to a much better place

So maybe that is why I'm here
In this psychiatric hospital
Wishing nothing more
To be put away for good.

I put on a brilliant dazzling smile
When people ask me if I'm okay
I tell them sure, I'll be fine
Even though I almost died today.

No, don't say you know how I feel
You've never been where I've been
Not ever knowing where to finish
Or what goes underneath my skin.

Someone grab me from this whole
Make me realize I should be here
Because if I can't find a way
Soon enough, I'll disappear.