Dark Abyss

Dark Abyss

Today was the day darkness fell,

I was surrounded with bitter hatred,

They told me I was nothing but a fool,

But how can I believe what they say?

She died yesterday, six years ago,

Six years of a childhood shattered,

My emotions were obscured because of the death,

For I had to watch her fade away softly,

With nothing but memories of that day,

Now I am contained in this shield,

For today was the day when all dreams died,

Along with my soul and mind,

Puddles of crimson drench thy heart,

And no one will ever know,

That the wound inside my heart,

Is one that shall never be healed?

For there is no antidote for depression,

Except suicide and pills,

But that’s just taking the coward’s way out,

I’m not one to be known as weak,

I was so strong for those all around me,

For I concealed all my compassion,

For sympathy and pity was what I would feel,

Yet I don’t want to cry,

Because my only hate is what I’m feeling,

I can’t break out, this is too deep,

Six years of waiting, waiting to be free,

I still don’t know when this will end,

Because this is a cursed world I live in,

Thy love is just a sin,

I hate it all; I damn it to hell,

I’m still amazed that I’m still even here,

For most people would break and fall into a dark abyss,

But I’m not like that; I’m headstrong and tough,

Though in the inside, I’m just as fragile,

I’m that fragile tough girl,

Who is waiting to be broken?

Who is waiting to be strong?

Six years of torment,

Brutal pain within thy heart,

Abiding thy crimson, drench my soul,

Daggers of pride penetrating my skin,

And then I fall…I’ve fallen,

Eternally in this coma of hopelessness,

Faithless for the millennium to come,

I don’t want die this way I feel,

I just want to feel safe again,

To feel what I’ve felt before this all happened,

I want to hear the laughter I once had,

Or the joy I felt as a child,

I’m only fourteen; people say I’m young,

But internally I’m an adult,

For my childhood dreams have vanished,

It all seemed like an illusion,

Nothing can be that good in life,

I’m in my own world of pessimism,

Please for all of you who have fallen in,

Pull yourself out,

Don’t live with the pain for six or more years,

For it will always be this cold,

It’s hard for me to pick myself up,

But I’m trying thanks to a close friend,

She told me that I have to also have a positive mind,

And a pure soul that I was born with,

I’m not some insane girl,

Who would slit her wrists and die,

For I only tried it once,

Because I was a coward then, but now I’m not,

I’m holding on for some people who care,

I’m not letting darkness consume,

For I’m there for the people who need me,

And now I’m repaying my debt,

Because I’m holding on for my friend,

The one who didn’t live,

I know she’s looking down upon me,

Scolding me for being weak,

When I should be out there living life,

But how can I live when I’m dead inside?

I can’t just sit around here in the barren,

I need to let the child break out once again,

I already have my inner strength,

Now I need to stitch up my internal wounds,

Heal them slowly over time,

And welcome back the bliss I once felt.

Tragedy swept into my heart,

I begged to let thy cry,

Now I’m ready to take on the world,

For this dark abyss has found some light,

And the world isn’t such a bitter place,

Now that I don’t cry about my life…

-Wrote this a while ago. I wrote this when my friend died 6 years ago, wrote it last decemeber.0