Dad

Dad why did you hate me so
Why didn't you allow me to grow
Didn't you see you were killing me inside
A little girl helpless daddy I cried
The man I once new existed no more
Just the figure of this monster towering at the door
Forgive me father for I have sinned
Why do you hit me again and again
Is it me that you hate
I can change can't we debate
Your belt was thick but your anger thicker
Inside those green eyes I saw my life flicker
How did I survive and how did I go on
The stubbourness to not conform yearning to belong
I held my own through those lonely years
At night left to live with my own fears
I used to spit in your food curse you to hell
Every time that hand fell
I'd scream and then I'd feel no more
Just a faint whisper of a loud roar
I was always nothing
When you wanted to feel something
And now here I am left broken
No that word should not be spoken
I survived and now I am free
You didn't kill me
-Jay Pierce-