I was only nine years old.

I was sitting down watching t.v
As my father stormed down stairs
Yelling and cursing harsh words
The noise I could hardly bare.
My mommy wasn't home today
So he starts yelling at me
I forgot to clean my messy room
I'm so scared now, he's very angry.
I try running up the wooden stairs
But takes hold of my little arm
I start to cry as he does me harm.
He screams at me to shut up
And lays me down on the couch
He takes off his leather belt
He raises his head in grouch.
Tells me to stop crying and hurting
Or else he'll hit me hard again
There was so much I couldn't bare
I couldn't handle so much pain.
He once more raises his belt
And slashes it across my head
I fall to the ground mindless
I thought I was almost dead.

Those thoughts still spin around
In my careless aching head
From this dreadful day
I wish I could die instead.

My father ruined so much
In my mind it still twirls
Like a little ballerina figure
I was just a crazy girl.

By a thread I'm holding on
Trying to be everything I can be
So all my friends and family
Won't see all the agony.

My fathers rape and abuse
Left me so broken inside
Not sure where to run to
Or what to see inside.

When I look back to that day
I remembered when I was told
That when my father had raped me
I was only nine years old.