Is it worth it?

I want to die
I want to kill myself
All the time I get these awful thoughts.

I always sit in pain
I always lay in pain
Maybe I should just lay in my blood
Or maybe I should lay in pills.

Every where I go
People push me around
Laugh at me
Use me

I want to curl up
and just die half the time

But I have a question
Is it worth it?