I Remember But I Wish I Wouldn't

I remember hiding in a closet
Hoping praying you'd forget
Whatever wrong I had done
Too many times though I held my tongue

I remember the furry I saw in your eyes
Your words were nothing but empty promises and lies
When I saw that flicker of anger I knew I had to run
Where to how I could talk to no one

Chorus:
I remember like it was yesterday
I remember wish I could just get away
Time and time again
I keep replayin
These seances
Daddy why didn't you love me

I remember every last word you said
You made me wish I were dead
Told me I brought nothing but pain and sorrow to this world
Hurtful words curse's and names were hurled

I remember all those times I swore it was the last
But then the next day or week I found myself reliving my inescapable past
The hit's and blows I could not sustain
Every time I walked or sat down it was in excruciating pain

I remember crying out
But like a yawn no one heard my silent shout
You stole everyone's heart with your irresistible charm
A man like you could never do any harm

Chorus:

I remember the mask you hid behind so well
You knew what people wanted you knew what would sell
But I knew what was behind the mask and all the paints
You are nothing but a mad man that needs to be put in restraints

I remember too many bad things
Like an open wound touching air it stings
I contemplate upon all those things I couldn't
I remember but I wish I wouldn't

I wish I wouldn't...
-Jay Pierce-