Such a fool

Here i am siting once agen confused
I got almost everything i want,
I got you but i want her to,
i don't know what to do.
My face turns blue with shame.
Fu#k this sounds so lame.
Ha i had to make that rhyme
But for real it seems like my life is ruining low on time.
Its turning 11 and heaven shut there gates on me so i am
stuck living in this world of hell all because i feel over my words
Now i have lost you i don't know what to do cuz i realise
Who i really love and thats you.