Anything But Blessed

I lie here
Forgotten by everyone
And hated by everyone else
Living inside their nice little worlds
With their happy lives
and happy smiles

I'll admit before my judge
My jury and executioner
That its true that i am blessed
I'm blessed within this
Whats the time? oh yes
really, whatever, its all mine

Anything but brilliant
Is where I live inside my head
My body is my prison
And so are these words
These words wont break my chains
My chains grow deeper than this

Im on my own you see
Because you didnt understand a word
Of what i just spilled out of my heart
So these words are my understanding
of who i truly am, i hope you know
What you were

Good god
Is that the time
The shotgun calls
And my mind is aching
I flash you all a smile
and i bid you all
Goodnight