Fade To Black

I can see us falling apart, i watch myself lose you
I watch as i lose myself
I'm telling you to leave me
I'm saying this is the end
Because I can't keep decieving my heart
Telling it that it's not breaking
Holding on so tight too keep it from crumbling
I can't keep shutting my eyes just to stop the tears
I love you, will not fix it or take the sting away
It will always hurt no matter what you say
My eyes look bruised and my heart feels swollen
I can't smile for you anymore, i am just too tired
There is no remedy to mend a broken heart
I've lived too long as your shadow
And now I am addicted
Your poison is keeping me alive
As it slowely kills me
So I'm letting go
I let your toxins drain into my blood
And haunt my every thought
I'm cutting off the the life support
I'm pulling the plug,
I'm withdrawing the needle
I don't need your assisted suicide
I can do this without you
Oleander is so sweet and so deadly
It reminds me of you, so beautiful yet terribly dangerous
I close my eyes and wait for Oleander's sweet escape
To cleanse me of your poison, to set my soul free
Your name is on my lips as it all fades to black.....