Everyone Tells Me

Everyone tells me
There is so much to live for
But the pain from the knife is relieving
But as soon as I star bleeding
Tears flow from my eyes
So my heart picks up its pace
I look down and cover my wrist
And beg for my own forgiveness
My head stars pounding
My stomach goes all in knots
Guilt comes upon me
And pulls me down
I cant believe what Ive done
I wonder why I ever would
Do this in the first place
But at the time it feels so right
Then I realize its so F-ucking wrong