What i have read?

I read something today
It burnt my heart
A pain i have
and your pain i share

I read something today
It made me scared
Fear of being alone
knowing the damage is done

I read something today
It made me nothing
You make me so little
I just needed you

I read something today
It showed me truth
A truth i already knew
realisation hurts

I read something today
It tore away meaning
Your love didn't exist
lies to both of us

I read something today
It hurt me so
Will i live again
tremors hold my body

I read something today
It showed me light
I am one but many
all you have killed

I read something today
It gave me despair
Scars heal my wounds
the knife is my lore

I read something today
It broke my spirit
Pretending I'm not here
strike as you will

I read something today
It made me understand
Death is my lord
take me away soon

I read something today
It was written
But yet a reflection of my mind
not one line to my own
I am nothing to you
Known was this to me before
I hate myself
why couldn't you love me
you said you could
you said you did
but we both know
you never did
you never will
I return to my torment
you take your own
you take it all
I live not for you any longer

the knife is my new princess
may she become queen

the blade is my love
may she rule down on me

the edge is my escape
may it come soon