A Blurred Thought

A Blurred Thought

I've been sitting here
thinking...
about life;
my life.
What I have,
don't have..
What I want,
and don't want..
What I need,
and don't need.
Been thinking about...
my friends,
my family,
and my love.
Then a dark cloud
blocks the way..
depression.
I start thinking about...
the crying,
the cutting,
the feeling of being down
and alone.
I can't take it anymore,
it has taken over life;
MY life.
It has killed all of my feelings
and crushed my heart.
All I have now is tears,
all I want is death,
all I need is the sharp razor pain.
Where do I go now?
I fight with myself,
my friends,
my family, and
constantly with the love of my life.
Have I lost?
Lost the game of Life?
Did I fail
and fall into the dark?
My furture holds a block,
too big to get around.
I have left myself
with no choice but...
to sit here,
think a blurred thought,
and wish for the light to shine through.

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Baby~B
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