Dont miss your chance

My love for her lies secret, like numbers to a lock, owned by someone long forgotten and tossed off of the dock. i feel sorrow now, for she will never know.. the feelings i have for her that i can never show... Ive loved her for years, shes been there through my fears.. but i let her go for the better.. now i long to be with her.. that which i thought was better, turned out to be the worst, my pain inside my body is about to burst.. but then i learned to suppress it, make it feel like its not so bad.. even though i know that she could have been the best thing i ever had.. i finally got past her, and the feelings that i had... well as much as i could, without going mad.. and i came to love again.. but the feelings she didn't hold true, the plans we had together, will fall through... and now Ive found another, another that i care for. but another had feelings for her, he thought there could be more. hes very close to her, so i walked him to the door.. they were best friends, got along very well, he told me that he liked her, and i helped him past his shell. i don't know how it went, but no one came out happy, even I'm sitting here crying, feeling very crappy.. she only likes him as a friend... yet he thinks they could be together. he has feelings.. he may love her. but what he needs to understand, is that what he has now is grand. they are best friends, and friendship never dies. they always have each other when one of em cries. i feel bad for intervening, it wasn't my decision, but i didn't want him, to miss his chance with this one. now they have talked, and decided to stay friends, which is a good thing, they'll have each other to the end. this may seem somewhat selfish, but it is honest, i have a lot of feelings for her, she is the best. i hope that someday i can be with her, i hope that i don't miss my chance, i hope that she chooses me as her final dance. i have true feelings for her, that i wont deny, but its sudden strength confuses me and makes me start to cry. i like her a lot, and i want us to be together, but thats her decision, i cant make it for her.

There is more meaning to me in each line of this poem than i can fully express to any of you in any amount of words... i wrote this for a situation that really touched me. any feedback would be greatly appreciated.. thank you for reading it!!