What Friends?

For nights on end i dreamt of her.
I wished I could be by her side.
I wished I could hold her close.
For days I wanted to swallow my pride.

I watched as she cried in the corner.
Knowing I could do nothing to aid.
Everyday I went home to weep alone.
Tears slice my face like a razor blade.

For weeks I wanted to forget my friends.
As they were the thing that kept us apart.
They told me I shouldn't bother with her.
So i tried, I shut the door to my heart.

Eventually I realized my Stupidity.
forget friends... i wanted her.
I realized as i looked upon her eyes.
My tears made my vision blur.

I watched as she kissed Him...
The man who told me to just forget.
I punched the brick wall in anger
Dreams? This put an end to it...

I couldn't bare to face him.
To her, I couldn't bare to not exist.
So I hid in my eternal darkness.
Lay down as blood drips from my wrist.