My forgotten love (part 2)

I soon found out,
it didn't take long,
it was just so noticeable ,
and the thought of
hurting my self was so
reachable.

i tried to call over and over,
but he didn't answer,
no not at all,
i left so many messages
but i knew
he would never call.

what was the point,
he was with his new girl now.
what was the point,
it isn't like we took any vows,
i guess i should have realized
that he didn't want me,
but i didn't know what to do
with out him,
i could only think of "them"

siting here i am
just wanting to die,
just because i can't forget
the look in Ur eye,
would it all be worth this all over some guy.
all my life i have been
living a lie, i
take the knife to my wrist
take a deep breath
and then i sigh.
my hands are shaking
i am having second thoughts,
my heart is racing ,
my stomach is getting knots.
i dint want to die,
i just want him gone,
i want him to go back
where he belongs,
doesn't any one see
what he has done to me,
doesn't any one care,
is any one listening......?
i guess no ones there....

I'll lock my door,
and once more take
the knife to my wrist,
it is just going to be
one more person on
the death list.

i feel it go in,
like slow temptation,
it makes me go numb,
like strong medication,
no one is ever going to see me again,
it is like a never ending vacation.

things get fuzzy,
i can't see at all,
this is a slow death
it just seems to stall.
as i get more and more dizzy
i realize this is the end,
and i am starting to have
2nd thoughts but it is
too late my wounds are
to deep to mend.

i left no memories of me
just a long suicide note
for them to see,

will they realize how hurt i was,
will they realize my pain,
will they realize that all
my days where
dark and cloudy ,
with much rain.

doesn't matter now,
i am already gone,
and just let it be known
that i am not only one
in this pain i am
not alone