My Typical Day

I wake each morning
the suns rays on my face
once again
i wake in this place

I stare in the mirror
count the rings around my eyes
i wanna hide beneath the covers
protect myself from their lies

I glance down at my wrists
the cuts so deep and red
now the demons forcing
their words into my head

I change the blood soaked sheets
then stare at the cracks in the wall
wondering when
my world will crash and fall

I get dressed for school
and head through the house
I'm afraid to breathe
as quiet as a mouse

The floorboards creak
my heart begins to race
my mother confronts me
and slaps me in the face

I curl up my fists
i swallow my fear
stare into her cold eyes
fighting back tears

I push past her
and run out the door
knowing when i get home
ill get some more

I get to school
I paste on my smile
pretend I'm okay
when I'm dead inside all the while

Everyone around me
they seem so far away
voices distant
as i stare into space

I get home too soon
i walk in the door
my parents are fighting
my dad screams "u dirty wh**e"

They yell and scream
i cant stand the sound
i run to my room
turn my music up real loud

I lay on my bed
stare at the ceiling
close my eyes
and block out all feeling

I grab a blade
and tear into my skin
hoping to release
all the anger & pain within

I drop the knife to the floor
blood flowing from my veins
just a normal day for me
nothing ever changes

Then i fall asleep
listening to the screams
i can never escape
they even haunt my dreams

This is how i live
this is my life
i am the girl
who lives by the knife

My life is just this
wishing my soul would fade away
for me this is just
a typical day