Disordered thoughts in my head
Why should I get out of bed
All the days are the same anyway
Why should I care? F-ck today
I won't even get up when
The phone ring's again
They'll only try and won't succeed
So I'll just sit here and bleed
The people I call my friends
Try to bring this to an end
But they don't know how this works
Abusive memories always lurk
This is my depression
It brings bad obsessions
My old habits of carving art
Like nails tearing at my heart
And I don't have to eat anymore
I mean, what do I need the energy for
All I do is use that blade
Showing myself how pain's made
But it's not like I don't already know
Cause like the scars, the bruises show
It doesn't matter when I lie alone
I'm by myself when at home
Lying in my disordered bed
Why should get these thoughts out of my head
