Feelings

Feelings how I curse them
they mess with me and confuse me
they torment me day and night
they torment my every thought

I wish I didn’t have them
id be so much better off

I hate them
I wish they were gone
how they make me suffer
I just wanna get away
I need to get away

there’s nothing I can do
my feelings just come back
I want them to stop
my world is turning black

I really don’t care anymore
they have turned me inside-out
sometimes I try to end it
but they come back even more painful
than the last time

it hurts and no one seems to know
what I go through
every day I hurt myself to figure out what to do

I cant go on
this is it
I say my final goodbyes and farewells
then I take the blade and draw on my wrist

I start to squirm and twist but soon I stop moving
it is done