I’m trying to understand what I did wrong
I don’t see why you think I’m so strong
In your presence, I feel your anger
Within time, I still feel it linger
It continues to exist
It just wouldn’t persist
During the cold rainy nights
There are always harsh fights
But during the warm summer days
It slowly starts to fade
Playing with emotions
Everything moves in slow motion
Pulling me down
When I scream, you don’t hear a sound
I sometimes cry when I’m alone
Knowing you only see me as a teenager with a phone
Of course, I screw things up
Not finishing my homework, or forgetting to clean up
I hear your voice screaming at me
Telling me that you don’t want to see me
You tell me that I’m unwanted,
You tell me that I am stupid
You tell me it’s all my fault
That everything I’m doing should just stop with a halt
I wanted this for 15 years
Living with you would vanquish all my fears
I guess I was wrong, as usual
I’m reminded of that on a daily bases
Every time we see each others faces
I’d tell you that I love you no matter what
But you’ll just roll your eyes at me and give me that look
“I don’t believe you” is all it takes
Telling me casually that I was a mistake
I don’t get how you can say that so easily
It’s almost as if you don’t care about me
Playing with emotions
Everything moves in slow motion
Pulling me down
When I scream, you don’t hear a sound
I sometimes cry when I’m alone
Knowing you only see me as a teenager with a phone
I don’t feel as if you love me
You always put someone above me
No matter what you’re never there
To be my idol, my superwomen, my mother’e
Playing with emotions
Everything moves in slow motion
Pulling me down
When I scream, you don’t hear a sound
I sometimes cry when I’m alone
Knowing you only see me as a teenager with a phone
It’s all going downhill
This gap we made is hard to fill
Maybe its all for the better
Maybe I’m not meant to have a mother
