Pretty in Pink (cutting)

I wanted to pick up the pieces
Of a broken, shattered me
As soon as I started trying
I fell back down on my knees
I took a pretty pink razor blade
I pushed it against my skin
I did it repeatedly
Untill I let out all my feelings within
Because of all my pain
The razor is a different shade
It's turned into red
The razor is now stained
I know what I do is bad
I know I need to stop
But no matter how bad it is
I still do it a lot
Four times today
Each time I did it worse
This is never ending
It feels just like a curse
I'm sick of crying empty tears
Sick of bleeding my life away
Sick of always wanting to disappear
Sick of hating myself everyday
This world I'm in is dark
Filled with shattered thoughts
Trying, Failing, Crying
This place it always haunts