Pushed Away

I look back now
And shed a tear
Those pushed away
Who came so near?
Who touched my heart?
And touched my soul
I left them out
To take control

I was scared, I was unsure,
Loved them all, but never told.
Scared of fear, And all alone,
Left outside, and in the cold.

I couldn’t tell them
Thoughts of mind
Silence screaming
Binding time
I look back now
And cringed that I
Couldn’t see the truth from lies

If you knew who I once was
Listen carefully because
If i pushed you far from me
It was for your sake I let it be
And now I want to say sorry

I loved you once
As only time can tell
And love you now
I torment in my hell
For not ringing your bell
And admitting that I fell…
In love with you