The chapters of my life

Flipping through the chapters of my life
You will finally realize or understand what its like to be me…
Behind these brown eyes lies a place where no one can go
A place where I go to escape and pray to leave…

This place is the story of my life…
The story’s quite simple u sees …
It’s the story of a girl whose life was great to others…
Her friends tell her how lucky she is to have a mom and dad...

They tell her that she’s lucky to have friends since she was born...
That her mom does love her even though she doesn’t think she does…
They tell her that they’ll always be there for her at any time of the night...

But if I lived in that world maybe it would be great…
But I don’t... I live in the world where people don’t second look me...
A world that feels like Im forgotten…
And that I'm alone…the worst feeling ever…

I live in the world where yea I have friends…but no one knows what its like
They say they do...and that their going through it too…
But they aren’t... they don’t cry so hard till their stomache hurts…
They aren’t the ones coming home w/ nothing to do but argue w/ their mom...

My friends tell me that it’ll get better…its not
And my friends are some what the problem,
It makes me feel so angry at them that they didn’t know
Or even suspect that I was in pain….

Even though everyday my face is paler and my eyes are darker…
Even though I don’t talk much anymore…
And even though I don’t eat around them as much as I did….

It makes me so mad that in my life in always in second place..
With my friends, relationships, family…everything…
It makes me so angry that just once there cant be a time where I don’t cry…

So when things get rough I always close my eyes to my place..
The place where I escape…the place where its just me..
But I always hate it at the end….
When I have to open my eyes and face reality…

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