I don't know my best friend anymore

Look at how far we’ve come
After all that we have been through
You’ve been there through my ups and downs
I don’t know how to ever Thank you…

Years have come and passed us by
There have been some trials and tribulations
Times we’ve wiped each other’s tears
And had some amazing celebrations…

We’ve shared some precious moments
Those memories I hold dear
But nothing lasts forever
Is what I have learnt over these years…

No longer are we having fun
Enjoying each others company
You hardly ever come over any more
And we very rarely speak…

When we happen to
Catch each other on the phone
Its like there’s nothing left to say
The conversation just gets dragged on…

Usually by me
I still get no response from you
You can reject my offers only so many times
What more can I really do…?

It’s seldom that we correspond
Content of what we write has changed
Its like were standing on different levels
Our points of have rearranged…

It’s not how it used to be
We’re not thinking the same any more
You say you care but I can’t see it
I wonder what I bother for…

It’s not fair on you
And it’s certainly no good for me
I feel like I’m at my wits end
Trying to get back how it used to be…

So I’m sitting here writing
In an attempt to tell you how I feel
You know the way I have with my words
It’s the only way I can be me for real…

It’s just that you know me better
A personality like mine
I can bite my tongue for so long
But it’s only a matter of time…

You used to always come over
We used to do everything together
For hours on end talking sh!t
Making plans to last forever…

Don’t start me on the weekends
I never had to say a word
We exactly what was going on
I felt like my voice was heard…

When we weren’t hanging out
We were at home on the phone
Or at work via email
There wasn’t a moment I felt alone…

Then all of a sudden your not here
We don’t talk and we don’t chat
We don’t do anything together no more
I don’t know where your life is at…

I feel as though your pushing me away
And that we are slowly drawing to an end
It’s like I don’t know anymore
The person I call my best friend…

Written 30 May 2004