Forget my name...

I find it hard to see,
The brightness of today,
Because there are dark clouds,
Shadowing my way.

I don’t know what I feel,
I am so very confused,
Why do I no longer love you?
My heart is being abused.

When we are happy,
It’s the best feeling ever,
But when we fight you scare me,
And I wish we weren’t together.

I hate being scared,
Too scared to answer the phone,
I’m scared that you will hurt me,
But I’m scared to die alone.

You can make me so happy,
You’re the light of my life,
But when our light goes out,
I’m scared that I will return to that knife.

I would hurt if I lost you,
But I’, hurting now,
I want to tell you this,
But I’m not sure how.

I wonder if you will hate me,
If I tell you this is how I feel,
I’m dying inside,
For a love I thought was real.