All eternity!

I am alone inside my mind.
Always something I cant find.
Always pretending to be something I'm not.
Never being near all that is lost.
Never able to to find what it is I seek.
Never able to see the peek.
Never being on solid ground.
Always wanting to be found.
Never seeing anyone near.
Always have those silent tears.
Falling slowly down my face.
Stealing every single trace.
Of who I am and what I believe.
Always trying to deceive.
Never free.
Never me.
Always being someone else.
Never living for myself.
Always pretending to be happy.
Always cheerful, always sappy.
There can be no more pretending.
Do you hear the message I'm sending?
Please don't pretend not to hear.
Don't you see its you who I need here!
Cant you see my pain, my fear?
All of these lonesome tears?
They are not for you, but for me.
I don't want to be chained to my pain for all eternity!