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I thought you were by my side,
I thought you would help me,
I thought you would like me,
I thought I knew what you said...

I thought you would believe in me,
I thought you would rely on me,
I thought you would play with me,
I didn’t realise before...

I can’t stand it any longer,
I can’t bare to see you trying to kill me,
I can’t believe the fact you hate me,
I can’t...

You played with my feelings,
You played with my mind,
You played with my sadness,
You were always playing...

I never saw the sun with you,
I never saw my friends with you,
I never saw the sky with you,
I was locked in a cage...

I’m not gonna give up,
I’m not gonna hurt you,
I’m not gonna make you pay,
I’m just gonna make you say that...

All those years with you,
All those years without them,
All those years without love,
All those damn years...

I don’t care about you,
I don’t care about your illness,
I don’t care about your pain,
I don’t give a damn about you...

My mind is screaming,
My mind is suffocating,
My mind is crying for help,
My mind is dying...

This monster inside of me,
This monster I can’t see,
This monster eating me,
This monster is me...

I want to see you die,
I want to see you crawl,
I want to see you cry,
I want to see you...

You harmed her,
You raped her,
You smashed her,
You’re nothing but dead...

This god is looking at me,
This god is laughing at me,
This god is twisting me,
This god is the good one...

This world is corrupted,
This world is getting darker,
This world is making me sick
This world is mine...

See her put to death,
See my family die,
See me in agony,
See me with your eyes...

Give me what I need,
Give me a hand,
Give me death,
Give me a deadly poison...

I’m sorry,
I’m sorry for what I’ve done,
I’m sorry if I hurt you,
I’m sorry...

Please forgive me...