How can I tell you this..

How can I tell you, my bestfriend about...what I'm holding back...what's hurting me inside, that I just seem to hide..
Tell her what is making me cry?

When she's the reason I'm suffering, but will never know..never have a clue.

I don't have a clue as to why I don't just say..I love you that's why I cry every single day...

Maybe it's because I don't want to tell something that I've held in for so long..hidden so well.

I know she would accept the fact, that I love her more than I should.
That she's the one I wanna be with when we grow old.

It's not fear of rejection..
Cause I know she would never reject me...but, I jus can't tell her you see...

I can't let her know just how much pain she's causing me.

This pain that cuts through me like a knife..
Makes me want but death, not life.

The kind of pain that makes one realize, just what real pain is right before their eyes.

But you can't tell anyone...
Cause you're too afraid they might spill...might tell your secret.

And you can't tell your bestfriend.
Because she's the reason you're in this mess.

But she'll never know...because you'll never tell.
Never get the courage to tell her how much it hurts just to see her smile.

How you long and ache..to be the one she loves.
How your heart does break whenever she mentions someone else she loves.

But she never does see the pain in your eyes...and sketched on your face.
Because you always have to hide your true self away now, even from her..

Like a story untold, a great author left unborn.

So is her heart left to mourn.