Pain B/c Of You

So far away yet so near,
Your touch goes by me, as I fear.

But when I see your face,
Around me is grace.

Everyday I am waiting,
But the days only keep fading,

As I miss you,
And don't know what to do.

When you were here I felt pleased,
Now you're gone and I feel so teased.

You see me, and your smile fades as you walk away.
And then comes another day

I try to explain,
But he left wondering why he even came.

I'm going crazy as I begin to hit
Thinking how I hate the world every last bit.

Taking a pill,
Waiting until

It will take me out of here
And I'll be far away from my fear

Then comes another day
I'm in so much pain.

I finally decide
I come to you and collide.

Crying I try to persuade,
But you shake your head and walk away.

More pills to take,
As I wish I were not awake.

I begin to weep,
And fall into deep sleep.

Another day comes,
He doesn't see me,

And wonders why.
He goes around and tries to imply,

But what he finds isn't what he wants.
Instead what he hears only taunts.

Thinking if only he didn't walk away,
I would have still been here the next day.

Because he knew I took the pills hoping it would kill.
Feeling guilty he begged and begged,

If I were still alive he would have said how he really feels.
That he just wanted time to heal.

And he loved me still no matter what,
He was just disappointed how I chose to cut.

But since he didn't say,
I never knew he felt that way.