Whyd you have to die?

The hand prints in my heart from you will never fade.
But you had to use that blade.
I'm sorry for being selfish and wanting you to be near,
I just don't think that its fair that you can bring that kind of fear.
I miss you more than ever, now that I know I will never hold your hand again, never see those eyes.
I know you can see all the tears I cry.
I don't understand how you could do it without thinking of me.
I need you so much now cant you see?
Cant you see that you have shattered my heart for good?
I trusted you with my feelings then you turn and die?
I don't understand why.
You did it to yourself in one clean strike.
But if felt like the blade went threw me and I fight with all my might
Can you imagine how I felt telling your parents you died in my arms?
Holding you tight you whispered I will never leave you soul.