I don't want

I don't want
to watch you leave
or to watch you try to convince me
that you and i are meant to be.

i don't want
to have to make you see
it's just too risky
we can never be.

i don't want
to have to regret
anything and everything
I've been trying to forget.

i don't want
to have to cry
to have to force myself
to sleep each night.

i don't want
to have to put you through
any pain at all
but that's all i can do.

i don't want
any of this
but i have to
forget you.

i have to
forget our memories,
i have to
forget everything.

please forgive me
for what I'm about to do
and remember
i don't want to- i have to.

please forgive me
for what I'm about to do
and remember
I'll always love you.