If only i could find you anew

I remember those days with you,
We sat there you in my arms,
At the computer together till the early hours.

I never really knew what to do,
But i never needed to know,
It was just us always us we needed nothing else.

I miss those days of just us two,
They shall be lost forever more,
Crying everyday im without you i will continue on.

I laugh of how you got the flu,
Our lips our mouths were joined,
Your friends never knew about me at all.

I look back how the dog got your shoe,
All the fun in your room,
Did your mum actually see us in the kitchen.

I know that during our time i grew,
Turned into something else,
The person i am now you just cannot love.

I took everything you said as true,
But i know better of it now,
Never again shall i believe sweet words of feeling.

I held you in my arms and flew,
Up so high the clouds did part,
But falling now my shadow rushes toward me.

I hope you get better than i knew,
You life sews up without me,
Finding it hard is most unlikely for you now.

And it kills me...