You cant stand me,
and i hate you.
you make it known to me that i\'m entirely unwanted
you feed my mom your bullshit,
you tell her that if she loves me at all,
that you\'ll leave her.
she\'s stuck in the middle,
but i\'m standing on the ledge.
i\'m looking down...
its pretty far.
my head is clear now,
there are no regrets.
i\'m not afraid to jump,
because i\'ve already been pushed.
along time ago,
my fate must have been sealed,
there is no fear now,
like there was before,
only anger.
it consumes me completely,
that rick took my mom.
she went with him,
but she left all 3 of her daughters behind.
this isn\'t the first time i\'ve been left.
left by a few with no remorse.
joyce, chris, doug, and ray.
but only one who left me,
wants to come back.
only one who left still cares.
kineta.
she is the only person who ever understood..
what its like to be so close,
yet so far away.
i look to my left..
and she\'s there,
on the ledge, right next to me.
where did she come from?
she\'s heaven sent.
sent to hold my hand
i assume she had come to stop me.
i had no idea how wrong i was.
she took my hand, and smiled...
completely thrown off balance, i stood and stared.
she came so that i wouldn\'t get pushed,
so that i couldn\'t jump.
at least not alone.
and then i wake up, the dream is over.
i\'m falling,
falling fast.
i close my eyes tight, and prepare for death,
then i stop...
i open my eyes and you\'re there, you caught me!
you told me that if you\'re friends were crazy enough to jump,
you\'d be crazy enough to catch them.
which is why you are my best friend.....
well.... that... plus, you know too much! (lol)
i love you kineta!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
