Deep down you're truly sad and hurt,
your parents think they know everything,
you cant hide your painful life,
all you want to do is cry,
you're not old enough to get away from them,
not old enough to make it stop,
so they make your life rough,
all they do is mock you,
they've completely lost your trust.
all i want to do is make is stop,
to be somewhere with people who love me,
even though i wont see them again,
not until I'm at least 18.
not at Christmas, new years, or even my birthday,
it doesn't even seem like a reality,
never to see my sisters, the ones who tried to help,
the aunt who offered me shelter, & peace,
a cousin that tried to reassure me of myself,
a cousin that i truly miss now.
it's true when they say you never know
how much you have until it's gone.
now i want to cry even more,
for the sisters that love me, to be with me,
for the aunt that stood by me,
for the cousins that embraced me,
for the grandparents that i know still care,
but really what i want most of all is my mom back.
my dad took her from me,
if she only knew my feelings,
if she could only feel all of my pain,
she'll never know what she's put me through.
being alone, cold, unloved, disrespected, treated like a dog, i feel so empty, so needy, i need something or someone here to hold my hand, to talk to me, to love me, to understand.
believe in me, to hold me when i cry from all the pain and stress my parents have put me through.
somebody that will be there for me.
i feel like an outcast at school,
a prisoner,
a loner,
a loser.
i try to fit in, but usually i get just as rejected.
maybe if i can find just one pocket of peace to live in, then maybe, maybe i can live and be happy with myself.
this is a true story. and this is whats going on in my life right now. if anybody has anything encouraging to say, it would be greatly appreciated. thanks.
