Out Of Reach

I wanna run and scream
leave and get out
I don't even know
what I'm crying about

I'm so confused
I feel so lonely
like my hearts been abused
left out in the rain

I don't wanna be alone
I feel so empty
so scared and cold
this isn't how I want to be

I haven't cut in about a month
yet here I am
turning again to the blade
my smiles about to fade

it scares me to know
that I have no control
and I feel so low
I need to bleed

I feel so out of reach
like I'm untouchable
when all I want is to be held
to be held by him