Sorry

Im so sorry…
Im so sorry that I do this
Deep down inside I don’t want to
But its like a lingering kiss

I kind of want to do it
I kind of need it too
Its like peer pressure in my mind
I just cant resist what I do

Right now im just uncertain
I’m apprehensive I just don’t know…
I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately
And I don’t know how to let it go

Its like my security blanket
The one I had as a kid
I cant do anything without it
I really wanted to keep this secret hid

But no…I was dumb
I went out and told the whole world
Everyone all of a sudden got all these judgments about me
And then my whole life just unfurled

I don’t know what to do anymore
Everyone is ganging up on me
I feel so secluded…backed into a corner
I guess they just cant see…

I mean I understand that they love me
And that’s why they want me to stop
But its my life…ill live it the way I want
…maybe ill end it all…with this one last tear drop