Lauren

It seems it got the best of you
High school, I mean
And by taking your best
It has turned you into the worst
Suddenly
Things started changing
YOU started changing
Your thoughts may as well had been written on you forehead with red permanent marker

Because they were so obvious!
You suddenly wanted nothing more than popularity
You CARED about nothing more than popularity
Boy
The sacrifices you made
Just to become a queens pedal stool
If you will
Nothing more than a bag holder,
A butler
Haha
Hell--
What am I talking about?
Butlers get paid.

And the saddest part is
You called these girls that you waited on hand and foot
~Your friends~
Your best friends
It hurt us all to see you ditch those who REALLY cared about you so you could follow your highnesses around 10 feet behind

I mean
Didn't you realize that they wouldn't even look you in the face?

Didn't you realize that they would ignore you and roll their eyes when you would speak?
Of course you didn't.
And as much as that puts us in awe
You did not see what was RIGHT in front of you.
You were blinded by blanket of hopes.
I tried to tell you--
Oh god I tried so hard.
But you just wouldn't hear of it
You were convinced that I was...
jealous.
JEALOUS?!
JEALOUS OF WHAT?!?!?!
Jealous of being walked all over?
Jealous of being stepped on?
Oh yeah,
That's me all right,
Jealous and green with envy
UGH!
It makes me SO angry to see you being taken advantage of!
And its YOU that that makes me angry
Because you wont do a damn thing about it!
"I wanna be friends with everyone",
You told me,
"I don't want to have any enemies."
Well, wake up sunshine!
Life ain't that fvckin easy
It never has been and I trust
It NEVER will be
You know
I’ve gone back and forth with this in my mind
Teeter-tottering
Wondering on which side I should land.
Well,
It seems you’ve jumped off the teeter-totter some time ago
Leaving the forces of gravity to pull me down
Inevitably influencing my decision
I just
I just can’t be friends with someone who is living a lie
I just can’t be friends with someone who doesn’t even realize how much the friends she left behind TRUELEY love her

Well
Remember this:
If and when you come to that realization
Remember, that even with what you put us through,
We’ll be waiting
Ready and willing to forgive

That’s what friends are all about
Right?