Gone Just Gone

As i sit here shook up inside i write
Its sad i couldn't before until this twisted fight
i don't know how to say this i don't know where to start.
Lets take it back a while ago before my broken heart.
i don't think i can do that seeing Ive always been torn
I cant hide behind the tears anymore or the smiles that Ive worn.
When people ask me whats wrong i cant give them a reason why.
I cant stand the thought of pain anymore pain because that makes me cry.
i watch myself crumble and can't stop me from the pain.
i wear these fake smiles as my tears keep flowing and drain.
i find my soul broken in a way hard to explain.
in my heart is coldness that might as well be frost-bite.
my flame has burnt out and so has my shining lite.
i make people cry and cant do anything right.
i am a bad person the truth i cannot fight.
I feel my heart go numb and wonder where i went wrong.
i sit here and cry as i sing a tuneless song.
i hate how people just me and like to see me cry.
i know people hate me and some wish for me to die.
my emotions are frozen as you can see it in my eyes.
The light that you used to see is gone as i loose count of the cries.
For every tear i shed is true.
and as for my friends I'm sorry if i don't show it but i do love you.
Ashlee's always there.
Ashley always cares.
Callie's great and rare.
Katie seems to care.
my thoughts are blank and this is what my life is about.
I try hard not to cry and ignore the muted shout.
I'm shaking right now as i write this poems last line.
I'm glad i did and so you know before i run out of time.