I can't hate you anymore
I have for too long
You have taken everything away from me
And left me here with nothing
Nothing except this
Broken heart
These
Swollen eyes
And this
Ruined life
You have taken that best of me
And left me with the worst
The part that I wish was never seen
But you brought it out
As if it was last years fashion
Which is what it is
I loved you last year
Not now
But since this side of me is out
I must love you again
I can't loathe you anymore
Curse the sound of your name
I can't even get angry at the shows you loved
The music you listened to
Or the clothes that you wore
No, I can't want to make you feel the pain I felt for far to long
I can't make you cry your eyes out
Until you can't see
No, and for the zillionth time
I can't make you love me
No matter how hard I try
No, I think it would be easier to be a good friend
Like we use to be
I think I should talk to you like a normal human being and treat you with respect
I think that we should start that life after high school that we never had
And yet
You think we have
I won't wish you were dead
Anymore
For I know that in the end
None of that will really matter
That you will get yours
Not today, tomorrow, or even in fifty years
But you will
And when it does,
Silly me, will be there
For you to have a shoulder to cry on
And someone to listen to you
That person will be me
And I can't hate you because of that
Because the person that I really hate is
Myself
For not being that perfect girlfriend that you wanted
For not being your every desire
And for that reason
I will stop hating you
And realize it was me
I hated all along
