The Signs of Light

The embracing light through my window reminds me of how we used to be,
My fingers coursing through your soft brown hair filling me with such joy,
But I think back remembering how you changed the beauty of light to darkness.
How your hair between my fingers turned to the ashes now contained in my heart.

The gardens in which we once walked bring back the joy of your touch,
Those stars and you made me feel so whole I was complete for the first time,
But those rusty gates are locked now and I won't be able to climb them again.
The stars from that night have died not covered but faded into their surroundings.

The time we went to the movies showed me so much more of who you were,
Your hand in mine and my heart with yours I still dream of having you near,
But that was the first time I saw your filth how your mind was not for me.
Your hand in mine released and my heart ripped away left torn on the floor.

The few times at the library still hold a special place in my memories,
How we began to notice the extent to which we felt for each other our non-subtleties,
You don't want new memories of there with me and have forgotten the ones we had.
Now I see the Un-subtleness of your disinterest and my own pain my own hate.

The music was always there Bob Evans Atari's Jebadiah all your favourites,
It sung with the sweet tune of my heart for you and of course yours for me,
But that music is now my saviour with the Atari's at my ear every waking hour.
"Broken Promise Ring" is their song for me for you it knows all my true feelings.

The computer in your room was always meant for sitting there you in my arms,
Though we were never touching should your mum come to open the door,
But to your house I will most likely never return your touch is unwanted now.
For all that your mum liked me I was right about what I said you would be crazy.

The telephone was one of our last resorts so much emotion through electrical pulse,
Messenger was our last late each night we would converse our greatest realisations,
But you are non-respondent now and show me no care no human compassion.
And on messenger i tell you of my love my loneliness my hate and my forgiveness.

The Love i had for you was so strong it still is i know i will love you forever,
You mean so much to me and i shall never forget your beauty such beauty,
But my heart is broken and with my love will come my hate and disgust.
And i know now that even if you call i no longer wish to come running back.